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The Apartment Above the Groovy Tunes, Sunday Afternoon
Borrowed time.

If Jonothon had to pick out one thing that had always been a factor when it came to his relationship with Didi, it was that every moment they had together had always been borrowed time. The difference was, these days he knew better than to waste that time by worrying about how much of it was slipping away. He knew that he was going to have to say his goodbyes again all too soon. For now, though, he wanted to make the best of this.

'The best of this,' at the moment, seemed to involve food of the quick and easy variety, the sort that came in cardboard boxes courtesy of a delivery boy, and a seat on the bed with the best of the Beatles playing quietly enough that it wasn't going to drown out the conversation.

//So, I could pull out the guitar. Serenade you while you eat,// Jono offered, easily. //Or we could talk. We keep meaning to catch up. And then we keep getting sidetracked.//

By things like him pulling out his guitar to serenade, in fact.

[OOC: For that one!]

living_endless

2015-04-19 09:22 pm (UTC) (Link)

"I'd like to talk," Didi told him. "You changed.I mean, more than most people do in this many years. More than lots of people do in a lifetime."

She shrugged, opening the top of one box to inhale the aroma. "It's all good things, but -- I want to know what got you here."

furnaceface

2015-04-19 09:36 pm (UTC) (Link)

Right, then no guitar for now. Jono nodded, and scratched at one of his shoulders, maybe just a little bit anxiously.

//They're not all good things,// he noted, because it seemed important to preface all of this conversation with that. //I might be more comfortable in my own skin, but I had to end up in a lot of ugly places in order to get here from a time when my biggest fear was whether or not I'd accidentally light anybody I like on fire.//

Which, in fairness, was a pretty legitimate thing to be afraid of.

living_endless

2015-04-19 10:48 pm (UTC) (Link)

"Even if the road was seriously messed up, the important thing is it's what got you here," Didi suggested, and reached to try to squeeze his hand. "Tell me. Believe it or not, I have heard a few really bad things before."

The evil got peace from her, too. None of them were monsters in their own heads -- and Jono was far from evil, let alone a monster.

Edited at 2015-04-19 10:48 pm (UTC)

furnaceface

2015-04-19 10:55 pm (UTC) (Link)

//...// Jono glanced down at her hand, and then, nodding, he squeezed it back. //I don't think I told you about Weapon X,// he noted. //It had happened before the last time you were here, but it wasn't high on my list of pleasant conversation topics, exactly.//

It still wasn't. But if she wanted to know, he wanted to tell her.

living_endless

2015-04-19 11:06 pm (UTC) (Link)

"We weren't really in a mood for deep conversation that weekend anyhow," Didi admitted. "If you mentioned it at all, I forgot. I am going to take a completely wild guess that Weapon X is the thing that got you big and blue?"

It seemed plausible to her, anyhow. She eyed the contents of the box -- mozzarella sticks and marinara -- and gave Jono a speculative look.

"Is it okay if I eat while you talk? No disrespect. Just, y'know, hungry."

furnaceface

2015-04-19 11:21 pm (UTC) (Link)

//By all means, luv, eat if you're hungry.// He even gave her a little reassuring smile, at that. //I'm not so ridiculous these days that I can't deal with the fact that people need to eat.//

Just another way he'd grown, he supposed.

//And... Weapon X was the thing before the thing that got me big and blue, if you'll believe it. It went Weapon X, and then M-Day, and then Clan Akkaba. And then after you came and went again, there was the Glacian War, and Fortress X because there aren't enough bloody horrible things with the letter X attached as it is, and then more recent events. The stupid horrible things the island does on a regular basis. The stupid things I'll do to cover for friends making equally stupid life choices. That sort of thing.//

... Not that he resented Kayla, but good god, Karla and Warren. Seriously?

living_endless

2015-04-19 11:34 pm (UTC) (Link)

"If you want to show me how to share with you later," Didi offered delicately, as she dipped a strip of mozzarella into the sauce, "I'd love to know."

She listened to the rest of his recitation quietly. When he was done, she asked, "So Weapon X was the first stupid, horrible thing that wasn't just the island being its occasionally stupid, horrible self?"

Edited at 2015-04-19 11:35 pm (UTC)

furnaceface

2015-04-19 11:42 pm (UTC) (Link)

//It's easy to do,// Jono noted, nodding a little. //I do most of the heavy lifting. All you need t'do is eat.//

Nice and simple, that. And another indication of just how much he'd been working with his powers since they were kids together. After all, he'd insisted up and down that his telepathy only went one way, back then.

//And... yes, it was. Unless you count me benchwarming for the X-Men, which I don't. I saw some horrible things there, too. Children hung up to die on the front lawn of the school, far too many massacres for me to be able to sleep at night. But Weapon X was when those massacres were blood on my hands, instead.//

And my, but his knees were interesting.

living_endless

2015-04-19 11:54 pm (UTC) (Link)

"I would have been less bitchy to Hannibal about it if I'd known that was all there was to it," Didi told him, which was as close as she was likely to come to apologizing. "Okay, then. I'll be eating, you dip in whenever you want."

She cut her eyes toward him. "Weapon X," she repeated. "Were you the weapon?"

furnaceface

2015-04-20 12:00 am (UTC) (Link)

//Well, paying attention to how things taste can't hurt, either,// Jono offered. //I'm mostly just tapping into your sense of taste. It is weirdly intimate, if you stop and think about it, I suppose. Sharing senses, that way. I could do it with smell or sight or touch too. Did do it with sight and hearing for a while, actually, when the island left me blind and deaf.//

And, er, headless.

And yes, he was well aware that he was babbling, now. Possibly mostly to avoid getting into the rest of it. He shifted his weight uneasily, and his next reply was a fair bit quieter.

//And yes,// he murmured. //I was the weapon.//

living_endless

2015-04-20 12:27 am (UTC) (Link)

Didi had more to say about sense-sharing in general, Hannibal in particular, and how exactly Jono had ended up blind and deaf, but it seemed like if she kept chasing tangents he'd never get through the painful story he was trying to tell. She nodded carefully around her mouthful of cheese.

"And did you want to be a weapon?" she asked, once she'd swallowed. "'Cause if you didn't, doesn't the blood stay on the hands of whoever made you do it?"

furnaceface

2015-04-20 12:37 am (UTC) (Link)

But really, Jono had so many fun tangents to chase!

... So, so many fun tangents.

//Theoretically, I suppose it does,// Jono offered. //Ideally, certainly. But it doesn't make those people any less dead. It doesn't change the fact that I put myself in a situation where I could be turned against them. That I did so knowing bloody well that there was a risk of it, that they'd been using mutants more experienced than me as weapons to kill other mutants since before I was even a thought.//

Edited at 2015-04-20 12:38 am (UTC)

living_endless

2015-04-20 12:46 am (UTC) (Link)

Didi appraised him slowly, asked a single question.

"Why did you do it?"

He hadn't changed so much as to do something like that just for fun, or because he was bored.

furnaceface

2015-04-20 12:53 am (UTC) (Link)

//Because I was still young,// Jono replied, after a moment's pause. //Young, and stupid, and idealistic. And I thought that I actually stood a chance of making a difference for the better. Because it seemed as though nobody else could.//

Which had been correct. Mostly. Except that he couldn't do it, either.

living_endless

2015-04-20 01:25 am (UTC) (Link)

Didi thought about it, then shook her head reluctantly. "I don't understand," she admitted. "You might need to start at the beginning."

"But" -- she added, tapping his knee with a fingertip -- "I can say idealism isn't bad, and neither is being young."

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